The last two days have been full of, “I can’t believe it! When do we leave?” It’s still amazing that such goodness can come from a place just hours away. We knew the ruling would come at 11am our time. I sat at my computer and hit “refresh” about 50 times. And finally, finally - there it was! “Victory for California!” What beautiful words!! We screamed and cried and danced around! It felt like sunshine and we can always use a little of that in Utah.
So now comes the decision of whether or not to go. I mean, it won’t do anything for our relationship here in Utah. Although it does establigh intent and intent is what gave me more than two more years with my daughter. But the truth is, I think I’m a little nervy about “marriage”. That seems strange because I have every intention of spending my life with Cristy and feel so blessed that she’s still choosing me day after day. But I’m a chicken for things that define us. Or maybe I have baggage dating back to my Civil Union… It’s tough. I like to think that we’re special because we don’t need to use fairytales to believe in our relationship. Marriage is a word. Love is where the reality is. Cristy would certainly say I’m just bitter. - I used to believe in fairytales and gooey poetry. Now I’m much more solid with reality. Anyway, we’re still kicking it around. I still might ask her to make an honest woman out of me one of these days.
So the ttc journey is still swallowing us up. My bruise is still as ugly as can be and I think I’ll have a new one by bedtime. I can’t believe how many of you thought that was my nipple! Like I’m the kind of girl that would just pose my nipple out there for all to see. :) Anyway, so far so good. Sunday is my last day of the pill and I’m hoping for new & improved boobs by Monday. We have an ultrasounds Tuesday morning and I’ll be sure to get some feedback from you all after that.
We have a great weekend planned. I’m sure I’ll have plenty of pictures for Sunday night. My goal it to host my very first yard sale but C keeps telling me we only have six things to sell. What I really want to do is just throw things out on the front lawn with a big “FREE” sign on them. We’ll see how that turns out. Then we’re hosting our Gay/Lesbian Parent Group and all their adorable kids on Sunday afternoon. It’s supposed to be 900 degrees so we’ll see how many of us can get sunburned.
Have a beautiful weekend!
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